It was 5 years back when I finished my high school, I was deliberating on what are the further education choices available for myself. I did not have a variety of ambitions at that point of time, but instead I had a clear mind on what I wanted to do.
I was a science student and I always think that science is a very interesting subject to begin with. However, I didn't get the chance to pursue further on science due to several reasons. I have a few teachers in my family. They have embarked the idea of teacher is the best occupation for a lady especially when she has a family, to my parents. Oh well, I have always in refusal to accept this idea and hence, I'm ended becoming an accounting student and am continuing it as my job that earns me a living.
Aiks... I shall stop dwelling too much about what was the past.
My company has added in a new KPI for us - to provide course delivery. Yes, it is elective and I was in dilenma. Shall I continue to volunteer to meet this extra elective KPI as promised earlier? ('Cos earlier I thought it was a core KPI to meet)
I didn't think too much and I just let things goes by by itself. One day, a L&D manager came to me to ask for my availability to instruct the interns who are joining our company soon. I asked on the timing and I thought it was a good timing and hence I promised and moved on.
Okay, so now, I've committed to instruct a course for the interns. What's next?
An email was sent to me and it reads "Instructors' Training Workshop". Wow! I need to be trained before getting on to become an instructor. What I did was to quickly browse through the participants of this workshop. OOHEEMGEEEE.... *childish thinking* I was in shocked that there would not be anyone I know in the workshop and the worst thing was, everybody else are managers and above!
I was almost the earliest at the workshop. Gosh, that's the obvious syndrome of a younger generation in the company. "The longer you are in the company, the later you will arrive at the workshop." Quotes by an instructor of the workshop.
Now, being post-workshop, I am actually glad that I am involved in the instructors' training workshop. Seriously I do, although initially I was very furious especially during the introduction/ice-breaking session, I could sense that glances are coming from every other participants showing that they are putting higher expectation on my presentation skills once they know that I am the ONLY senior in the room.
I've got some praises from the workshop. I'm seriously very glad. But I know I have some problem in speaking smoothly. Hiccups will be added somewhere in all the the sentence I wish to say. I need to practice more, I know. I haven't talk smoothly ever since I stop public speaking. Is this what happened when we are so engrossed in typing our speeches through words? Blame the computers.
Well, I think I'm pre...par...ed...
Whether or not I'm prepared, I have to deliver on what I've promised, isn't it? Confidence, it is deep in my heart. I need to dig it out to the surface in order to portray myself to become a good instructor and perhaps, become a real good instructor that receive good comment from the participants.
Instructing is different from teaching. At least, instructing is to use adult learning style to instruct the participants and I do not need to worry about how to handle the kids.
Wish me luck!
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