Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone in the World. This celebration is celebrated by everyone in the World regardless of where are you from. What a lovely celebration.

This year, today, 14 February 2014 is a utmost special day for us. The western Valentine's Day co-incide with the Chinese Valentine's Day. I don't think this special day has happened before in the entire of my life. Not sure, maybe it does when I was still young and I've not known what is a Valentine's Day.

I've not celebrated any Valentine's Day with my love one ever before this. I broke up with my ex before the Valentine's Day comes. So I missed it. Oh well. When will I have my valentine?

In this Chinese New Year, I've lou sang for three times. The most times in the entire of my life. I've not made many wishes this year other than good health and be safe. Seriously. Why didn't I made a wish that I could have my valentine soon? This is so stupid. I should have. Today is the last day of Chinese New Year, no more lou sang, no more chance to make the wish. Aiks.

So yes, as usual, no one be my valentine on this special day. All these years I've been keeping a hope that I could have the chance to celebrate this special day with one of my best bro-friend. I've not said this out ever before. I was in love with my this bro-friend since high school. We were together all the time in school and have many fun times. We have gone to different path and he has got his life with his girl friend and not pursuing anything further with me. Oh well, they are now getting married and deepest in my heart, I wish them happily living after. Seriously.

I've got another friend, I'm not sure what's my feelings towards him but I'm actually good to have him as my love ones. But he has gone through a short relationship together with his ex who is also my friend, a close one. They broke up with mutual agreement but I'm not sure if it is right for me to pursue to further my relationship with him. I don't think he has anything towards me but maybe one day later? I don't know. I dare not even talk to him on this special day but I could feel that he was hugging me very tightly when we were taking pictures together last night. Friends hug perhaps? 

Hope things goes well. I do not wish to put in too much hope as the higher the hope, the more disappointment you will get.

Anyways, Happy Valentine's Day once again.

Chinese New Year

The Chinese New Year is around the corner.

I've been very busy since the start of the year. I am working through day and night with serious sleep deprived. I was commented to have a "peak period" look. Oh yes, peak period in my industry means the busiest season of the year. I don't see it as peak or off peak. I'm in the peak period whenever I'm working.

This Chinese New Year falls on a weird timing. Two public holidays falls within the same period and I've lost a day of leave. That aside. Chinese New Year is the celebration of the new lunar calendar for the year. It's the year of Horse this year. My year. Two cycle has passed and I'm getting older. Oh dear...

Seriously wishing that it will be a good year for me.

Sending you a photo of lion dance. Wishing all Chinese in the world, Happy Chinese New Year and a prosperous new year ahead!!

感性·我

今天我想写一篇照应我感性那一面的文章。好久好久没有写中文了，若写到不好，请勿怪。

这个星期我身边都不断地有各类的事情/事物，包括了大家最开心的节日—— 圣诞节。圣诞节前夕，我跟了身边好友过了，可是我好像都忘了这节日的存在，都忘了说一声圣诞节快乐。我们都好像好久不见，好像都不知该谈什么好。怎么会这样？聊聊近况嘛，怎么都好像很难？

圣诞节前夕，也就是我家宝贝猫咪比比不吃东西的第一天。

圣诞节当天，我舅舅在我记忆中首次家里请吃。真的没想到会如此简单且华丽。好可惜，没带到相机呢。

圣诞节当天，我家宝贝猫咪比比不吃东西的第二天。

隔天，我当了一天的司机，到了一个小镇吃东西。还好啦，食物还不错。

这天，我家宝贝猫咪比比不吃东西的第三天。

星期五，这一天，我中学老大从英国回来度假。我们安排了一餐聚会晚餐，简简单单的，可是让我有机会与老大、大哥们见面，实在让我很感慨。老大，我很想告诉你，你真的是个模范男友、丈夫，可惜你在老远的，真的很难让我对你擦出什么的火花，我与你，只有那小妹崇拜老大的感觉。当晚坐我旁边的，是与我感情最深的大哥。大哥，你怎么发福到这样夸张呀？我真的能够跟他这样开玩笑。我们也谈了一些比较感性的话题。大哥，中学时候，我已经觉得你很有智慧，思想很成熟。现在的你，只要小小几句，我觉得你更有智慧，更成熟了。你让老大发现了我这么感性的一面，老大，你吓到了么？我才发现，我在大哥面前，真的能够表现着我最真的一面。虽然没刻意，可是就是那么自然。大哥盘问了我的感情生活，唉，我是“吃素”了好好的三年呀！大哥，你劝我要参多些人，怎么做呀？放开眼阔，怎么放呀？真真实实的，我没有桃花，我更不知该怎么办？大哥，你知道吗，其实我一直不能放下的是你吗？我们就如此错过了好时机，你就永远成了我大哥…… 我还以为我们这么久没见面，我对你已经没有感觉了。我才发现，我错了。你真的是唯一让我在你面前有心跳的感觉的那一个。我在我前度的面前都没有这样的感觉，你真的很特别。为什么会这样？大哥，我就要叫你女友大嫂了，我是要放下了，你可以帮帮忙吗？我为什么这样？与你见面我很开心，你也是第一次与我拍照时把手搭上我肩膀，我们认识这么久了…… 这次的见面让我现在很痛苦……

这天，我家宝贝猫咪比比不吃东西的第四天。

今天，我与姐姐决定带比比去看医生了。我好沮丧，比比身体已经非常弱，打了针好像更弱了……比比好像会随时永久性睡着了…… 宝贝，我不明白，为什么你会突然生病了？你带给我们家那么多的欢乐，你怎么说要走就走呢？我们哪舍呀？比比，今晚你睡一晚够了好吗？我要看见你明天精神起来好吗？

为什么我不能开开心心的过完剩下不多天的二零一三年呢？我今天真的很难笑得出啊！

泪奔。

Merry Christmas

It's seasons greetings. Merry Christmas.

Happy Winter Solstice 冬至快乐

Winter Solstice or Dōng Zhì (冬至) is the celebration of the arrival of winter. The Chinese will celebrate it with the Glutinous Rice Ball or tāng yuán (汤圆) which symbolises unity of a family. 

This year, my family do not buy the glutinous flour to make tāng yuán but bought frozen tāng yuán. It's tastier and bigger! Haha!

Anyway, Happy Winter Solstice everyone!

Holding hands through the time

We have always been sharing the same knowledge source under the same roof, same four walls. We never spoke to each other but were always been called by names. My eyes were always attracted to him as he has a similar faced girl beside him all the time. What relationship are they having? I was always curious about them.

Till we started our adulthood working in a corporation, we met again and we worked closely with each other. We see each other more than anyone else. We talked, we stared, we laughed, etc together. I enjoyed the time together with him. I always asked myself, what are we? What is my feelings towards him? Honestly I don't know. Many people would have thought that we have a very special relationship. Fret not. We are just friends. He has a long tern, stable, close and similar faced girl friend.

In one occasion, we were playing a game. He held my hand. Many things run through my mind. What's the feeling I was having at that time? Do I wish to have such hand held throughout my life?

I'm really confused. The incident was already passed two weeks. But I'm still thinking of it. Was that hand held given me a strike in my mind to think about what I want for my love?

Thoughts.

Hello December!

Hello December!!

December is a month of celebration, celebration of joyous moments with family and friends. December 2013 is a like a summer holiday to me. I've finally have a month off from work after a long year of work. Feeling really appreciative for this month.

December this year is not only a year end holiday for me, but also an eventful month. There will be my sister's wedding ceremony. I'm such a terrible sister here. I've not helped a single thing with such complicated things around with the wedding ceremony. Besides, I will be going for a few days trip off from the country with my best friend and buddies to a beautiful sunshine place. Also, I will be teaching for the first time in my life in my company. What a great experience I will be having in this month. I'm so looking forward for it.

Happy holiday for myself and of course everyone else.

Merry Christmas!!

What is Gen-Y expecting?

Gen-Y. I am myself born in Gen-Y, the years between late 1970s and mid 1990s.

There are many publications talking about Gen-Ys on how these bunch of people reacted in the reality world etc, especially employers.

Gen-Y wants high income less work...
Gen-Y wants flexible working arrangements...
Gen-Y wants more time commitments on social media....
Gen-Y spends the moment they earn....
Gen-Y doesn't know how to save...

Etc.
Etc.

Oh well. Here's what I thought.

Gen-Ys are those lucky kids whereby their parents would have strived to earn as much money as they could in order to give themselves and their children better and more comfortable life. Perhaps this could have given the kids to think that money come into our pocket so easily and they taken all these for granted. I have few friends, their daily pocket money or even shopping pocket money from their parents during school days is already more than what they would have earned by themselves. Of course these guys thinks that employers are not paying them enough! Look! What is the cause to this phenomenon?

Alright, maybe everyone may think differently. I do agree that our employers are not paying us enough with the escalation of living costs these days. I believe all these are chain effect and income will never be higher than living costs. Once we are paid higher, our employer will definitely factor all these increased in costs into their products they sell and subsequently affecting the consumers and hence, increase in living costs again. It's a forever and ever kind of thing.

Myself, I've never live in the high pocket money life. What I'm earning now give myself a fair bit of comfortable life. I can have things which I wish to have without thinking too much. I can say that I spend like nobody business. I don't save much as I have nothing much to save after the monthly fixed commitment and spendings.

Well, I do agree that commentators have been saying that Gen-Ys do not save. Saving, is an important part of financial management but how much to save it's all depends on what is the appetite of each individuals. No one can comment on this. my point of view is that why must you sacrifice in your spendings to make your life comfortable and happy while you can? Life is so fragile and no one would ever know what will happen in the next moment. Albeit you have saved a million dollars and you have not enjoyed your life all these years just because you want to save the money, and in the end of the day you do not have the life/strength to enjoy what you have saved for your later life. What's the point then?

Perhaps many baby boomers will think differently from what Gen-Y does, but the world has evolved and things have changed. There's no right or wrong in everything. It's all depends on how you put things together.

Live or leave?

Live or leave?

Live, it means live on and continue where you are.
Leave, it means leave from where you are.

To decide whether to live or leave is a very hard decision. Many of the times, I have had the thought of leaving. I do not want to stay in the place anymore. I want to go to a place where I could do something that I want. But, what do I want to do?

To live on, I was wondering if I can handle all these which I will be facing in the near future.

I wish I will continue to receive powerful support from the right persons.

Joss sticks at the temple

We often see joss sticks at the temple. People who pray at the temple will burn joss sticks to the God of Honour of the temple they are at.  

I don't go to temple very often but I will do once in a while. Some will go on every first day and the fifteenth day of the lunar calendar. It depends on individual culture and belief I suppose.

I don't know a lot about the Chinese religion background but I thought it is good to get some blessings from the God of Honour at the temple I used to visit.

The temple I visit is often visited by overseas tourists and I find it interesting to see the Englishmen being so interested with our culture and take that as a scene of photography. I've decided to be one today as well. I hope my shot taken is not that bad.

Enjoy.

Zumba Fitness

I'm not a ZIN neither a Zumba instructor.

I was introduced to Zumba by a friend of mine to a nearby dancing studio about a year ago. I wasn't sure what was Zumba at that point of time and I do not have any dancing background. I was worried initially. Whether I can do what is taught in the class? Whether I can follow the steps?

In the end, I went and join the class at the dancing studio. It was once a week. I'm really glad that in the class, I do not need to worry about the steps, neither do I need to worry about embarrassment, what I need is all about confidence and just move along with the music.

Slowly, I picked up the steps. I can't do any sexy moves but I suppose this comes with practices. My instructor is very good at giving instructions despite seeing me in a mixed and confused movements. Slowly, I'm in love with Zumba and I am very proud that I could make it through the one hour class every weekend without feeling tired.

One of my favourite numbers for Zumba Fitness is Fiesta Buena. The music is cheeky and the steps are easy to follow. I just love it.

However, my first Zumba instructor had decided to continue his studies overseas and then I've lost directions on where to go to for the search of new Zumba instructor.

Fortunately, I get an opportunity to join a gym club in town at a discounted price. In the gym, there are a few famous Zumba Instructors. I have chosen one who has classes on weekends due to my work commitment.

The class is packed and everyone is very good at Zumba. Guess they are in the class for a real long time. I'm glad to be able to continue Zumba with such a professional instructor. Indeed, I think having Zumba as part of my life, it has helped me to be able to set a target in  my life.

Recently, there is a new number released. Oh gawd! I love it so much! Dale dale.... dale dale.....

Zumba, has brought me certain level confidence. I wish this could benefit me in life.

I love movement. Yes, Zumba.

Malaysian Satay

The Malaysian Satay is amongst the most popular food in the tourists' eyes. Indeed, satay is really delicious. 

This is the recent satay which I've had in Ipoh. Nothing special from the tastes. I am still in search for the best satay in the country.

:)

A new light in my life being an instructor

It was 5 years back when I finished my high school, I was deliberating on what are the further education choices available for myself. I did not have a variety of ambitions at that point of time, but instead I had a clear mind on what I wanted to do.

I was a science student and I always think that science is a very interesting subject to begin with. However, I didn't get the chance to pursue further on science due to several reasons. I have a few teachers in my family. They have embarked the idea of teacher is the best occupation for a lady especially when she has a family, to my parents. Oh well, I have always in refusal to accept this idea and hence, I'm ended becoming an accounting student and am continuing it as my job that earns me a living.

Aiks... I shall stop dwelling too much about what was the past.

My company has added in a new KPI for us - to provide course delivery. Yes, it is elective and I was in dilenma. Shall I continue to volunteer to meet this extra elective KPI as promised earlier? ('Cos earlier I thought it was a core KPI to meet) 

I didn't think too much and I just let things goes by by itself. One day, a L&D manager came to me to ask for my availability to instruct the interns who are joining our company soon. I asked on the timing and I thought it was a good timing and hence I promised and moved on.

Okay, so now, I've committed to instruct a course for the interns. What's next?

An email was sent to me and it reads "Instructors' Training Workshop". Wow! I need to be trained before getting on to become an instructor. What I did was to quickly browse through the participants of this workshop. OOHEEMGEEEE.... *childish thinking* I was in shocked that there would not be anyone I know in the workshop and the worst thing was, everybody else are managers and above!

I was almost the earliest at the workshop. Gosh, that's the obvious syndrome of a younger generation in the company. "The longer you are in the company, the later you will arrive at the workshop." Quotes by an instructor of the workshop.

Now, being post-workshop, I am actually glad that I am involved in the instructors' training workshop. Seriously I do, although initially I was very furious especially during the introduction/ice-breaking session, I could sense that glances are coming from every other participants showing that they are putting higher expectation on my presentation skills once they know that I am the ONLY senior in the room.

I've got some praises from the workshop. I'm seriously very glad. But I know I have some problem in speaking smoothly. Hiccups will be added somewhere in all the the sentence I wish to say. I need to practice more, I know. I haven't talk smoothly ever since I stop public speaking. Is this what happened when we are so engrossed in typing our speeches through words? Blame the computers.

Well, I think I'm pre...par...ed...

Whether or not I'm prepared, I have to deliver on what I've promised, isn't it? Confidence, it is deep in my heart. I need to dig it out to the surface in order to portray myself to become a good instructor and perhaps, become a real good instructor that receive good comment from the participants.

Instructing is different from teaching. At least, instructing is to use adult learning style to instruct the participants and I do not need to worry about how to handle the kids.

Wish me luck!

Wedding bells.

Lovely wedding cakes. I've just attended a lovely couple's wedding last night. It was really a touching wedding. They have been a loving couple for 10 years and finally they ended their relationship as girl-boy friend to become husband and wife.

Reflecting through their stories, I think being a loving couple relies a lot on each others effort. If one party do not put in the effort to make the relationship work out, the whole thing will not last. Appreciating each other is really important.

Wishing this couple of my friend to have a happy marriage.

:)

Nine to five

In the past one and a half week, I've been going through a nine-to-five working life. Okay, fine, that's not nine-to-five but at least it wasn't as long hours as my usual working hours.

In Australia, the government actually require the citizen to finish work at 5pm sharp everyday in order to promote work-life balance. How I wish I am living in such environment as well. Unfortunately I am in Malaysia. Yes, a country where employers promote work-life INTEGRATION.

I guess my employer has kinda successfully input work-life integration into my life and I prefer working late than to finish work at 5pm. Oh well, reason being that cars in Malaysia are getting more and more, or maybe is it because the place I am staying is over-populated? The jam is terrible. I'm getting old and my feet hurts when I am stuck in the jam and pressing on the brake while waiting. I feel so tired of that. At least when I finish work late, the traffic has recovered and I can just reach home without wasting much of time.

Oh well. What am I thinking?

Work-life balance? or Work-life integration?

Relationships

More often than not, quotes mentioned "Life is fragile". I think so do a relationship.

Relationship often happens when two parties attracts to each other when they both have something in common and this is usually being thoughts of view. However, will the same thoughts of view be the same all the time?

Recently, I've got two couples of friend experienced a broke up. I am certainly surprised to their outcome. They are both lovely couples to be seen. Oh well, like I said, relationships are fragile too.

The first couple grew up together and get into relationship some time during high school. They both went into different eduction path after high school but their relationship stayed strong. I thought they were really lovely. However, as soon as the girl started working, things has started to change. The viewpoint of life of the couple has changed and both started to have nothing in common. Arguments were then started more and more frequently. And in the end, they both decided to give up the relationship.

Another couple, getting to know each other during work and got together lovingly. Everyone thought they were cute couple. Really they do. However, they both decided to give up the relationship after one year. The reason being they have different view point towards life when one party has changed one's view point and thus they can't continue life together with each other.

Why change can cause such a drastic effect to a relationship? We can't adapt to change? Or we can't change together with the change we facing?

Grieved.

Hello world.

It was at least 4 years since I last blogged. Yes. 4 years has past.

Why I stopped blogging? It was rather being I was out of time and there are many more social media available for myself to update my daily activities, etc. Lame excuses? Oh well, practically I was pure lazy.

2 years ago, I have planned to re-blog and apparently it didn't work out. I started working two years ago and my life turns out to be quite hectic and I always in search for time for myself. To relax, to day dream. I miss the days where I could day dream about everything under the sky. Oh! Those good old days.

Today, I've decided to start up this blog, to blog again, hopefully I'll get this space updated occasionally. As the title of this blog, The Pony Ride, it symbolises a pony wondering around throughout his life, seeing through various experiences and shares his experience wherever he goes. I wish to use this blog, to share my experience, my view point on certain things, etc. Nothing great but I appreciate comments and complements to help myself to improve and to be a better person as days goes by.

With much of appreciation,
thepony